SOS Heart

The coffee cooled while I stare at the empty room thinking about the universe - how it all began, how it connects one thing to everything, how the stars place themselves at such a definite location that their light reaches my windowsill at the right moment in this time of my life. The blinding light of my desktop computer shined so brightly against my dark room for a long time that I never realized the time flying until I heard the faint ticking sound of my watch as it neared 3:00AM. I have been in these crossroads many times over, but this time it's because of you. Our breakup was clean, efficient, surgically perfect one might add. We remained friends and we have been through ups and downs, dramas and endings. It has been years now but still. You remained the single man that you are. I am happy - or I thought I was until I started seeing you change. It irked me at first, seeing you yearn for me when I cannot give more than friendship. I wanted so much for you to move on, get on with your life, to grow up.

These past few weeks I started noticing change. My heart is tearing piece by piece with every photo, every post, every new memory you have with her. I know this is all my fault that I pushed you away. It is all that I could do after what has happened. Even though I could not imagine myself without you I believed with all my heart that we don't have a future at all. But hell! This is the reason why I kept our friendship going on. I cannot break away from you - my soulmate. We had so much together. But then I noticed that the more I hold on to you, the more I hurt you and the more my heart tears apart as I think about my future.

The golden glow of the moonlight cannot fully wash my thoughts away. My coffee grew colder. The starlight faded but my heart remains in pain. I am with guilt and my mind is raging against every rightful thought I have to remain sane. Time is running out for me. Should I call everything quits? Should I let you go and be happy with her? Will I learn to love the person I will chose over you? I am seriously considering the option of staying away from you to protect myself, to protect my heart from waves of pain. I am afraid.

How could I get over the fact that I am feeling the pangs of jealousy with anyone - especially her - that goes near you? I am dying and no one can save me, no one. I am trapped. I am in love and has always been - but now I realized it has always been you. You are mine and I am yours - for always. That was our promise.

Muccio di Bella

There are only a few things in life that captivates both the senses of sight and taste. Now, I am not so much of a pastry addict. I bake, yes, and it is one of those things I do that fires me up. However, let me bring you to Mucchio di Bella, where art and pastry goodness meet.

An art studio turned pastry&arts shop, it houses teeth locking chocolatey goodness of beautiful paintings and pastry what-not magically made by Doc Nanette & Doc Iko Catigbe. Being classmates for a short while in a pastry course, even then I already noticed the harmonious partnership they share that is rare in couples these days.


If you have tasted my own cooking and that you like it, turn off your biases and allow your palates to be imprisoned in their fantasy-made-real kind of baking and art. It is classy and elegant yet very accommodating at the same time. Forgive my poorly taken photos (I do think I didn't do justice to Doc Nanette's talent here) but I do think you will get the idea of what you are getting into.

I could glut myself (and yes I did) with the pastries that they created and cannot stop myself from snapping at every turn of every corner because of all the art that is dripping down the walls. Check these photos out!

pretty cool, huh?!

impressive!

Matilda! Gothic original by Doc Nanette

You haven't figured it out that these are Nescafe containers!

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I had to take a photo before I nomnomnom!

and who doesn't wat to live right there?

And just as if you are still not impressed by all that, blame it on me I just used my phone's minute camera, you have not seen all. Come by on Fridays and have a go for all the goodies your tummy can carry because they have all-you-can-eat buffet and sing your throat coarse during Acoustic Fridays classic jam! Totally awesome!

The masters brewers of awesomes!